Wednesday, July 28, 2010

My Spiritual, Personal Rant

When one of my girlfriends was over last night, I started listening to what I was saying during my passionate vegan ramble that my friends somehow don't find totally ramble-y. I listened to how much I love being vegan, how everything is delicious, how much I love cooking and nutrition, how much energy I have, all the weight that I DON'T gain even if I skip workouts (for an entire week..), and how happy I am. Sure, I've been happy before; being in love has its happy points, as well as getting a good SAT score or finishing a run I didn't think I could finish. But this feeling is so clear. So real, lightweight, and so airy. My head is so free of rubbage that I've realized there's room for so much more. I've delved back into my yoga practice (which had taken a long hiatus) and started looking into meditation and Buddhism. I've begun to take initiative, carpe diem and seize the day. My life is now completely in my hands.

My relationships with everyone in my family have become what I never thought they could become. My sister is like my best friend. My Dad and I actually get along now, and I've discovered he's a chill guy to talk to. My Mom and I don't fight as much, which is a huge improvement. It's as if everything was out of sync before, and now it's running like a perfect machine. The gears were all moving to a different rhythm, to a different tune, and now they're all moving together. And truly, I owe this all to becoming a vegan. I was skeptical when I first read Skinny Bitch (in one sitting), but soon I had to do it. I saw the videos of animal cruelty, and it drove me to tears. It pained me so much to see that happen to living creatures with families, friends, babies, and emotions. That topped off the decision for me.

I am a vegan for primarily health reasons, but I never would have made the change without being so pained by animal suffering. And now, I have found my love for cooking and my passion for nutrition. I've always been kind of a health nut, ever since the eighth grade, but looking back, I realize that I actually was not eating very healthfully. I sure thought I was, and was always improving or changing my diet in some way, but I never was eating in a way that brought me such serenity and balance in my health, my mind, my choices, and my life.

For my entire life, I hated milk. Wouldn't drink it, made me gag. However, my family was always saying the typical, "You need milk to grow!" spiel, trying to get me to guzzle down a glass. No thanks. Dairy has always made me feel icky, and gave me bad breath (but it does that to everyone). I also never really liked meat. I always looked at it with an "icky face" on, and avoided eating it, usually having to coat it with lots of salt and sauce. I didn't like the idea of eating an animal. Thinking of what I was eating would cause me to nearly vomit on my plate.

So it makes sense that as a vegan, everything is more in-sync. I'm eating what I'm supposed to, and living with the compassion and awareness that all people should have. My life is right now. It's in its order, every puzzle piece in its plate, with a perfectly smooth surface for walking. Everything I need is here for me, and all I have to do is follow my passion in everything I do. I've learned that my passion is my most powerful asset, and whatever I do with it, I will be happy because it's something that my whole heart and soul is in. I love nutrition. I love food. I love helping people better themselves, I love learning how to better myself, and I love cooking for people and allowing them to taste the beautiful flavors that are good for them and have respect for other living beings.

So last night as I was getting ready for bed, I reflected on my life since going vegan and looked at myself in the mirror with the most loving, cherishing, happy smile I've ever felt myself give and thought to myself, "I've never been so happy in my entire life." Going vegan is the best choice I've ever made for myself and for my life.

So namaste, girls. I hope everyone got something out of my passionate wordflow. Have a good day :)

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